WHEN YOU THINK HE IS NOT THERE
Happy holidays to all my ardent readers. To all my Muslim brothers and sisters, I say Barka de sallah... it's really a long holiday which is totally good for my soul..
All through this week I have been going through so much, from work, to sorting out my life and most especially emotional worries ( majorly the problem), last week I saw something that isn't the first time I will be seeing it but this time it totally put me off and I decided I wasn't going to take any of it anymore. I spoke to the person involved and I got same reply as always.... chill. Well, I told this person to go sort all the issues this person has and then the person can decide to come for me but until then no more closure.....
At this point so many thoughts came up in my head, I started skipping food, my weight reduced and just this morning I asked my mother if i've grown skinny and she said yes! Omg!
This morning I got down on my knees to pray( I haven't prayed personally in a long time) I have being so distant from God. Why you ask? But on my knees and as I made to open my mouth, my mind started speaking or rather questioning.....
Father, you said this and that, you promised me this and that
Father, why am I in this fix?
Father, this and that I continued complaining instead of thanking....
And then I heard a word " I am here ".
See people, most times in our difficult moments, when we are at the valley, in our low of lows, when we think God has forsaken us, when we feel rejected, hurt, played on. When we complain out of our worries, God is right there. At the centre of it all. I was beating up myself, blaming myself for my mistakes, thinking if I had done things differently the out come would have been better forgetting God. But he says he is there and that's all that matter. Whatever the out come I trust God's judgement.
Look unto him today and always, he is there, always there screaming to be heard.
Happy holidays
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All through this week I have been going through so much, from work, to sorting out my life and most especially emotional worries ( majorly the problem), last week I saw something that isn't the first time I will be seeing it but this time it totally put me off and I decided I wasn't going to take any of it anymore. I spoke to the person involved and I got same reply as always.... chill. Well, I told this person to go sort all the issues this person has and then the person can decide to come for me but until then no more closure.....
At this point so many thoughts came up in my head, I started skipping food, my weight reduced and just this morning I asked my mother if i've grown skinny and she said yes! Omg!
This morning I got down on my knees to pray( I haven't prayed personally in a long time) I have being so distant from God. Why you ask? But on my knees and as I made to open my mouth, my mind started speaking or rather questioning.....
Father, you said this and that, you promised me this and that
Father, why am I in this fix?
Father, this and that I continued complaining instead of thanking....
And then I heard a word " I am here ".
See people, most times in our difficult moments, when we are at the valley, in our low of lows, when we think God has forsaken us, when we feel rejected, hurt, played on. When we complain out of our worries, God is right there. At the centre of it all. I was beating up myself, blaming myself for my mistakes, thinking if I had done things differently the out come would have been better forgetting God. But he says he is there and that's all that matter. Whatever the out come I trust God's judgement.
Look unto him today and always, he is there, always there screaming to be heard.
Happy holidays
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